Reb Shlomo in Santa Rosa, Sunday afternoon, November 30, 1980 --	22 Kislev, 5741, two days before Chanukah, the week of Parashah Miketz.

I want to tell you something very deep. Let me ask you:	what is higher? If G-d reveals himself to you face-to-face, like G-d spoke to Moses--Isn't it crazy? G-d never spoke to Moses in a dream--clear prophecy, right? To Abraham--clear prophecy. Isaac--Jacob also, sometimes--clear prophecy. And sometimes, it was in a dream. And Joseph, which is like an earthshaking dream that he'll be the King, you know--I mean besides getting involved now, without even thinking--how earthshaking that was! And besides everything else, like the first revelation of Jacob, when he leaves the Holy Land--he's so broken he has to leave the Holy Land, and everything, and everybody knows, when Jacob left the Holy Land, he didn't just feel his own personal feelings--him, Yankele, leaving the Holy Land. Jacob was (like) so much one with all of Israel, he mamesh felt the pain of every Jew--till Mashiach is coming--leaving the Holy Land, right? So wouldn't it be more beautiful if G-d reveals Himself to him face-to-face and say[s]--"Listen, don't be afraid, Yankele, you'll come back, you'll make it back"?[instead of] in a dream.

Okay, now I want you to know something. The saddest thing is--without saying anything bad, you know--my luggage didn't make it, and I had brought about 200 books with me--the deepest depths--from the Ishbitzer on dreams. So anyways, I'll have to rely on my memory from last year, hopefully, or just make it up. What's memory? You make it up, right? L'Chaim! (Drinks some of the milk he had asked to be brought to him earlier.) From last lifetime.

I want you to know something very very deep. If someone talks to me face-to-face--I'll tell you as an example. Listen to this. Yesterday I walked on Broadway, and I met this absolutely beautiful girl, right? And she was just so cute and so sweet, and I just fell in love with her very madly--okay, mazel tov. Nothing happens before, nothing after, right?

But you know something else, yesterday I was--yesterday was Shabbos; I couldn't be on the subway--so Friday, I was on the subway, and for one split second I saw a girl on the other side sitting there and, mamesh, every night I dream about her. What's deeper?

Or I'll tell you something else. This is one of the deepest, deepest depths of Reb Nachman. How close do you have to be to a person to tell them something straight? Basically, a stranger can ask me, "How much is one and one?" I'll tell him "two".	I don't have to love him; he doesn't have to love me--I'll tell him "two". There is certain language which is only given when you love somebody very much, right? It's the deepest depths, right? On one hand, it's maybe not so clear. On the other hand, it's so much deeper, right?

You know how a Jew makes it in exile? A Jew in exile does not make it because [of] all the G-d revelations he ever had--or he will ever have. A Jew in exile when he goes sobbing, is mamesh in the lowest depths, is crying, is broken, a Jew is making it because of all the dreams. You know what dreams are? You know, I can tell you a dream and you say it's stupid, right? If you are logic[al], if you are straight, it's nothing, right?

Joseph comes [to his brothers] and says, "I had a dream I'll be the King." Ha! You can laugh in his face, right? Imagine Joseph would have come--"I had a clear vision, a clear revelation--a prophetic vision--that I would be the King of the world. So that's what it is, right? Where would Joseph be? He would never become as holy as he is, as deep as he is. He had a dream. So the brothers consider him as if he is crazy, right? But can you imagine how deep the dream was, that he knew it's not crazy? How deep it is?

You know, I'll tell you, I had this absolutely crazy dream--I discussed it with my psychiatrist--I had this crazy dream that there's a ladder, you know, and like I'm lying on the floor, and there's a ladder going up from me to heaven. So my psychiatrist discussed it with me, right?

It's stupid, right? It's...gevalt! You know, I don't want to say anything bad, but imagine, G-d forbid, Jacob would have seen a psychiatrist the next day, you know? Where would you and I be? Where would we be? Where would we stand? He'd say, "Listen, you have some kind of complexes, you know, and all kinds of things--"	A dream is so deep, and here I want you to know something. You see, what does it mean, "We are in exile"? To be in exile means that G-d cannot speak to us face-to-face, 'cause officially he's angry at us, and officially we're angry at him, right? But you know what's going on? When nobody's looking--when nobody's looking--we are sending love letters to each other, right? You know how deep this is? You know how deep this is? It's the deepest depth there is.

What's the whole world telling us? Listen, Jews, you're on your way out--forget it. What are they telling us now? Forget it. You're in Israel? It's a joke. Tomorrow morning the Arabs will drive you out. But gevalt, gevalt, every Yiddele knows--every Yiddele knows--it's not true, right? It's not true, right?

Imagine I would come to Yerushalayim, and there's this beautiful holy Temple, and it's just real, just, just renovated now by brother Max Cohen from Miami donated the paint. And it's just so beautiful, and we have an interior decoration, and we go there, and it's our pride. It's this beautiful building--how touching would it be? Honestly. And there Rabbi Goren has his office right on the first floor. Really, realistic. Would you shiver when you go there? No. You know why you shiver? 'Cause it's broken. It's broken. And the Zohar kodesh says, even when the Holy Temple will be rebuilt, it will be both broken--and rebuilt.

How could G-d take away the holiness of the brokenness, right? You know what happened to the broken tablets, when Moshe replaced them? You threw out the broken tablets? We have both. Broken tablets? You know why the first tablets didn't last? Because they weren't broken. It has to be together--broken and not broken.

So, dreams--G-d reveals Himself in a dream only to broken people. So deep, right? The deepest depths there is. Okay, now I have to tell you something very fast. Why was Joseph the first one to be sold? The first Jew to be going into exile, being a slave, was Joseph. Everybody knew by prophecy--this was clear prophecy to Abraham--that "Your children will be slaves."	And you know what Joseph was praying all his life? Let me be the one for all my brothers. Let me be it for all my brothers. Don't put it on my father.

And you know, everybody knows, basically the Gemora says that Jacob was supposed to go down to Egypt in chains [Shabbat 89b]. And, mamesh, Joseph did the whole thing for his brothers. But you see what's so crazy, imagine you walk up to somebody, and you tell them, "I love you the most in the whole world."	And they think, they say, "Huh! I	know what you mean. You want to manipulate me, you want to take advantage of me."	Right? So you know, when Joseph said, "I'll be the King," what did he mean? He meant, "I'll carry the whole burden for you."

You see, an unholy king is someone who is really taking advantage. "You work for me, you're my slave, and I'm the king."	What's a holy king? What's a G-d King? Not that "you're working for me"--he is working for you, right?

Let me ask you, sweetest friends, how did King David conquer Jerusalem? Everybody knows that Jerusalem belongs to King David--it's his personal property, did you know that? Ir Dovid--Sukkos Dovid hanofales. Why is Jerusalem King David's own property? The answer is very simple. Everybody knew that--you know, the seven nations who occupied all of Israel--and then the chili Yevusi [the Jebusites]--they were such strong warriers, and they were living on that hill where Jerusalem is, and you couldn't get close. You know, they were waiting for two hundred, for three hundred years in Israel after Y'hoshua, and nobody conquered Jerusalem. And do you know? Everybody knows--Hoshanah Raba, the seventh day of Sukkos, is the day of King David--right? If you remember. Why is this day, the seventh day of Sukkos--you know what happened on that Hoshanah Raba? King David decided, "I am going to take Yerushalayim all by myself."	One man--all by himself. Because really, if you trust God--does it matter to God if one man is going or if a thousand people are going? It's the same thing, right? Hoshanah Raba, King David walked up to Yerushalayim, and he conquered the whole city, right? That's a king, right? The king is not somebody who says, "Listen folks, let's go. I want you to be killed, and I am sitting in my office, and I'm directing traffic."	Right? For that you don't have to be Dovid HaMelekh, right?

So you see, I want you to know that two people who carried the burden of all of Israel on their shoulders--already:	Yosef and Yehudah. You see, Yosef says, "Okay, you can go home."	So all the brothers say, "No, we'll all be slaves instead of Binyomin."	Yehudah stands up, and he says, "I want to be the slave."	That means two people stood up, and they said, "We want to do it for all of you."	This is two kings, right? This is a king!

And maybe some of you know, according to the tradition, it's called, "Ma'an malka? Rabbonim." "Who are the great kings? Our teachers."	Why is it? Why is a real holy teacher supposed to be a king? (Always a king, hopefully.) It's not someone who puts it on you, right? A real holy king is someone who says, "I'll do it for you. I'll take it off you."	L'chaim, l'chaim. [drinks some more milk].

So you see? Let me ask you something else. Why did Joseph tell the dream to his brothers? He couldn't control himself? Why, he was a yenta--or was he in analysis, and one of his brothers was a psychiatrist, you know? I mean, what was going on there? The answer is very simple. You know, Joseph knew one thing. If I am supposed to be the slave--if I wanna do it--the saddest thing in the world is I have to separate myself a little bit from my brothers. You know? I have to go by myself, right?

So Joseph knew one thing:	the moment I tell this dream to my brothers, they'll be angry at me. But can you imagine?--I have to tell you one more thing, which is so beautiful and so heartbreaking. Let me ask you--what happened at that moment when the brothers saw Joseph? Were they laughing? Were they smiling at each other, you know, we're finally getting rid of this disgusting Joseph? Without getting involved--because I have to daven Mincha--for whatever reason they decided they have to sell him as a slave, what do you think was going on at that moment? (Long pause.) I want you to know something. Imagine you'd be up in heaven, right? Can you imagine if someone would have recorded the crying of the Jews when we went into exile? When the Holy Temple was destroyed when we went into exile? Can you just imagine it? Can you imagine the sounds of the crying? It does not compare to the crying of the holy tribes.

And here I want to share with you something which is so holy, that I just have to tell you, and I think if some of you remember--maybe Adina remembers it. Okay, there are these two kings in the world. Joseph is the King of all the Tzaddikim, Joseph is the King of all the people who never did wrong in their life--and Yehudah is the King of all the people who went wrong--everything they did in their life is wrong. And they have the strength to fix it, right?

You see, Yosef is the one who gives you the strength not to do wrong, to keep yourself going all the time, and Yehudah is the one who gives you strength to fix it. And we need both, right? Those two kings [are] the pillars of all of Israel. Now listen to this--and remind me to come back to it, because we have to daven Mincha. I just want to tell you this. Okay, the brothers decide--basically it was Yehudah's decision--we have to sell him as a slave. Because they say like this:	"We don't know if he is a Tzaddik or not. We don't know who he is. We give him a chance. If he goes to Egypt, and he remains a Jew, and he remains holy, he's one of us." Right? "If gets lost, then he wasn't for real."	Right? Okay, they're picking up Yosef from the pit, and they're telling him, "Yosef, this is our decision. If you are real, if you are one of the holy tribes--"	You see, without getting involved, you know, they thought he is not one of the twelve tribes. Because if you're one of the twelve tribes, how can you separate yourself from your brothers? How can you separate yourself from your brothers, right? And they didn't know that he's only separating himself because he wants to take off the burden of being a slave [from them]. But anyway, that's what it was.

They said, "If you're one of us, you'll make it. But if you get lost--so you get lost."	I want you to visualize--it's the deepest, deepest depths. But again, it's so holy, it's awesome even to think of it. How do you think the brothers said good-bye to Yosef? How do you think the brothers said good-bye to Yosef, right? Because deep down, can you imagine how much--how much love do you think was between the brothers and the house of Jacob? Unbearable, right? It was so deep and so holy, we have no concept, right?

Let me ask you, do you think, really, without knowing the depths, do you think there was jealousy between Rachel and Leah? Remind me to talk about it later. There [were] never two sisters in the world who loved each other more than Rachel and Leah, right? The deepest love, like Moshe and Aharon, right? Because everybody knows, Moshe and Aharon fixed the sin of Cain among men, and Rachel and Leah fixing jealousy between women and hatred between women until Mashiach is coming, right? The two pillars--Moshe and Aaron, Rochel and Leah.

Okay, the brothers saying good-bye to Yosef. Okay, so Yehudah, who's the king, right? He says to Yosef, "Okay, we're selling you as a slave, and you'll have to prove yourself, if you remain a Tzaddik or not." So you know what Yosef says to Yehudah? He says to Yehudah, "My holy brother, please bless me I should make it."	Right? "Bless me to be a Tzaddik."	Now listen to this unbelievable thing:	Yehudah blessed Yosef to be a Tzaddik. And you know why Yosef remained a Tzaddik? Because of the blessing of Yehudah, right?

What do you think Yehudah says to Yosef? 'Cause he's selling his brother as a slave, as much as he knows "I have to do it," so Yehudah says to Yosef, "Please bless me I should do t'shuva."	Right? So Yosef blessed Yehudah to do t'shuva, right? And Yehudah blessed Yosef to be a Tzaddik. Right? It's mind-blowing. Mind-blowing is not the word, right? So the two pillars of Yiddishkeit, the Tzaddik and the Ba'al T'shuvah--they blessed each other. It's unbelievable! Yosef is only a Tzaddik because of the blessing of Yehudah, and Yehudah is a Tzaddik because of the blessing of Yosef.

And you know, I want you to know something. L'chaim [sips]. You know--[someone stifles a sneeze] God bless you. [And again] God bless you. What's the holiness of the holy wall? You know what's so strange? It's a broken wall. And yet, you can see with an unclear prophecy the holy Temple, right? When you stand there, you see, mamesh, the Beis HaMikdash, right? But again, if you would see the Beis HaMikdash clear, it wouldn't be so deep. Because behind all the brokenness--like on a dream level--you see the Beis HaMikdash--therefore, it's so holy. Right?

I have to tell you just one more beautiful thing. When was the day that the wife of Potiphera mamesh really made it strong with Yosef--she says, [either] you do it, or I take you to prison. Which day was that? Everybody knows, it was Rosh HaShanah. But listen to this unbelievable thing. It was in the morning 'cause everybody--it was a whole big thing--it was a little thing in their pagan temple--and Yosef stayed home. Okay, I want to--(responding to someone's importunity) I'll daven in a minute--I want to share this with you. [Hebrew quotation]--it says, "he saw his father's face."	What--he saw his father eating breakfast? They [had been] living together. He saw his father waking up? What moment did he see? Which moment was revealed to Yosef? Which moment he saw his father? So the answer is very simple. He saw his father blowing the shofar.

You know, friends, I don't know if you have ever seen mamash Tzaddikim. I had the privilege of seeing the Lubavitcher Rebbe, I saw the Bobover Rebbe, I saw mamesh Tzaddikim the way they looked before they blow the shofar, right? When you remember that, it's something else, right? So I want you to know, Joseph went into prison on Rosh HaShanah, and everybody knows, he came out on Rosh HaShanah. L'chaim, l'chaim [he drinks again].

You know, the Ropshitzer says the portions of the winter wear heavy furs--you know? It's all covered up. It's all covered up. And it's such a privilege--you know, it's very crazy. Before Mashiach is coming, in our generation, really, we have such holy books; it's getting more and more open to us, and it's really more and more accessible to us--the deepest depths of the Torah, right? Let's say twenty years ago, nobody was sitting in Santa Rosa talking about Yehudah and Yosef, right? L'chaim.


You know, I just want to tell you something very special. You know some people are--let's say the world--the outside world--the Greek world, the Greek civilization world. You know, when someone says to you, a father or a mother says, you	know, "My children are the most beautiful children in the world," you think they're crazy, right? Stupid! They're subjective, right? It's true.

But I want you to know something. Do you know what that means? When I tell you my Neshamale is the most beautiful girl in the world, for me, you know what that means? That means G-d has revealed something to me about my child which nobody knows. And if I say I love my child like I love every other child in the world, I'm cutting myself off from G-d's prophecy, right? And, uh, you know, I'm sure you feel the same way. You know, sometimes, when I ask someone about their children, they say, "Yeah, they're okay, they're sweet, yeah."	What's going on there?

Did I tell you?--I think I told Yitzchak [Muller] or one of you--one of my first experiences in the world. At that time I was crazy. I loved this one girl very much. So, it didn't work out. At that time I was in yeshiva. It's crazy, you know? At that time I was a little big shot in yeshiva, and some of you who know a little bit about what's going on in yeshivas, so if you're a good student, then a great rabbi wants you for a son-in-law, right?

So a super-great rabbi comes to Lakewood to talk to me about marrying his daughter. I tell you something--he told me all about his daughter:	she's this, she's this, you know, like I tell you about Bermuda is beautiful--they have beaches and things. There was not tears in his eyes--he wasn't crying--it was like it was a business thing. He told me since I want to be a great rabbi, and she was fitting to be a good rebbetsin, you know? He gave me the whole thing. Left me cold like ice cream.

I want you to know, the next night I decided to visit the father of the girl I love so much. He was a little yiddele, a Polish yiddele, and he had a grocery store in Bensonhurst. What are you selling in a grocery storre? You know, a little herring, a little corn flakes, a little leftover challah from last Shabbos, you know?

Okay, I walk in there; it was already maybe 10:30 because I was coming from Lakewood, and it was very late. All right, I took a chance. I know he's in the store till eleven o'clock. I walk in there; there were some customers. I'm standing there, so after all the customers left, he said to me, "Okay, what do you want?" So I tell him, "I'm a friend of your daughter." Obviously, she must have told him about me.

Do you know what happened? This little grocery store yiddele--suddenly he had tears in his eyes. And he says, "My Tovele, my Tovele--" gevalt, right? So forgetting about the whole thing, I said to myself, if I would look for a father-in-law, I'd take him, right?

But now I want you to know something deeper. Not only that G-d reveals to parents something about their children, but it's going back also. It's a two-way street. G-d reveals to children something about their parents which no one else knows, right? Do you know children--until they're disappointed--until their parents, chas v'shalom, disappoint them--think their parents are the most special people in the world, right? Do you know what's the most heartbreaking day in the world for children? When they find out that it wasn't true.

And you know, I'm one of those special blessed people that I had the privilege to believe until this very second how special my father was, you know? So special. Why? Because it was a two-way street. Because my father, you know? My relationship to my father was so special. So special. Unbelievable.
